In a Bad Place

I'm in a bad place this morning. I am fed up of being overweight, I'm fed up of not being able to have whatever I want from a menu without thinking about my points, I'm fed up with not being able to have a few glasses of wine without worrying about the scales.

This weekend I tried to be restrained. I tried to make good choices and was constantly thinking about what I was doing and eating. My efforts were in vain. I still went over my points and I have stood on the scales again this morning and my weight has gone up another 1lb. So since last Thursday somehow I have managed to gain 5lbs. This is so unfair. I haven't eaten excessively. No mars bars, no puddings, I wasn't excessive in my alcohol intake. The points have come mostly from eating things that were high in points but a non-weight-watchers person probably wouldn't consider as particularly unhealthy for instance things like spaghetti bolognese or a beef sandwich, beans on toast.

No witty banter from me today. I am so fed up, I need to sort myself out and prepare myself for a bad weigh in on Saturday. I have been so restrained for so long and now I have undone all my hard work in a single weekend and you know what bugs me the most? I watch programmes like Supersize vs Superskinny and when they have the overweight person on they always eat a heck of a lot more than me and a lot more bad stuff too, crisps, chocolates, biscuits, doughnuts, cream cakes, sausage-rolls, pies, cheese sandwiches, the list is endless. Before weight-watchers I rarely ate any of this stuff, I was just unwise about what was going into my food, olive oil, fat in mince-meat etc. and this makes me mad.