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Tuesday, 25 March 2008

In a Bad Place

I'm in a bad place this morning. I am fed up of being overweight, I'm fed up of not being able to have whatever I want from a menu without thinking about my points, I'm fed up with not being able to have a few glasses of wine without worrying about the scales.
This weekend I tried to be restrained. I tried to make good choices and was constantly thinking about what I was doing and eating. My efforts were in vain. I still went over my points and I have stood on the scales again this morning and my weight has gone up another 1lb. So since last Thursday somehow I have managed to gain 5lbs. This is so unfair. I haven't eaten excessively. No mars bars, no puddings, I wasn't excessive in my alcohol intake. The points have come mostly from eating things that were high in points but a non-weight-watchers person probably wouldn't consider as particularly unhealthy for instance things like spaghetti bolognese or a beef sandwich, beans on toast.
No witty banter from me today. I am so fed up, I need to sort myself out and prepare myself for a bad weigh in on Saturday. I have been so restrained for so long and now I have undone all my hard work in a single weekend and you know what bugs me the most? I watch programmes like Supersize vs Superskinny and when they have the overweight person on they always eat a heck of a lot more than me and a lot more bad stuff too, crisps, chocolates, biscuits, doughnuts, cream cakes, sausage-rolls, pies, cheese sandwiches, the list is endless. Before weight-watchers I rarely ate any of this stuff, I was just unwise about what was going into my food, olive oil, fat in mince-meat etc. and this makes me mad.

1 comment:

Alli said...

Oh hun, I'm sorry you're having a rough week. Was the 5lb a sneaky peak? If so, you may be pleasantly surprised this morning, I certainly hope so. It could just have been a full stomach or not enough water.

I'm one of those people you saw on Supersize v Superskinny, lol, I used to live on crap. My dinner was healthy, but my breakfast and lunch would be made up of mostly of crisps chocolate and sausage rolls or pasties, for breakfast and lunch, so I was slowly killing myself.

I often ask why this has to be so hard? But anything worthwhile is hard, otherwise everyone would be 7 stone.