I'm going to put a positive spin on this post by calling it a high point. I could think that I am at an even lower point than my last post but I this time I have decided that's the wrong way to think, hence the title. So, the family is well, the business is good and stable so for a change I can and will put myself first.
Well to complete the picture, I did go back up to a size 22 and am at the minute pushing a size 24. I have found the last couple of years a bit stressful and weight watchers was the lowest priority. I continued to help at the meetings but have regained most of the weight I lost. I have pains in my feet, especially in the mornings, I am out of breath all the time again and generally feel too tired and end up in that crazy vicious circle of being so tired by teatime that i can't be bothered to cook properly and end up eating crap and drinking wine every night.
On the positive sideI have now lost 10.5lb since my biggest weight and at least I haven't put it all back on. If I hadn't been going to the meetings every week perhaps I would have done. So that's good right?
I am going to wipe all my previous weight losses, reset my goals and call this week 1 again. This is after all a new start and I think it might not be helpful to have ghosts of my past weight loss haunting my page. Last night I re-took all my measurements again and I tracked all day yesterday so am automatically feeling happier today. Mad isn't it, how we make ourselves so sad?
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