Oops!

Well, I didn't do so well at the weekend (as expected) I have eaten everything that I fancied and enjoyed it. Well never mind, I don't really care. I wasn't expecting to give myself a lifetime ban on the things that I enjoy, I just happened to eat most of them in one weekend.

So now I am home and back on plan, I am drinking my water and gearing myself up for a gain at the scales this weekend.

Incidentally that's me RUNNING in the photo (a rare sight indeed!)!

Keeping it in perspective...

When I first started ww again my hubby said something to me which has sort of stuck. Now when I tell you what he said it doesn't sound very supportive or helpful but actually it hit home.

I had gone over my points by eating something really blooming nice, can't for the life of me remember what it was but I was having a moan and a panic about it, as you do, and hubby turned round and said if you are going to be obsessive like this every time you you eat something nice you may as well stop going now.

I was a bit bloody shocked when he said it but actually he is right. When I am bad now, like last week, instead of getting too upset and obsessing about what I have done wrong I just think oh well, had a nice time, enjoyed it so now time to carry on! Oh you probably think I am sooo smug and self-righteous but I am just so happy that this time around I am getting it right.

In the past a blip has turned into a complete failure and one week of being too scared of going to the scales because of a holiday has turned into never going back to meetings. I mean come on, how ridiculous is that? Who am I scared of? My leader certainly wouldn't be bothered about a blip after a holiday? Maybe I am scared of showing lack of self control? Who knows...

This time I am determined not to fail but I am only human and can't do this perfectly with no gains at all...who can? I bet even bloody Kate Moss gains a pound or two on holiday!

Well this weekend I am going camping, last time I went I put 1lb on. Well I am going to put it into perspective...so I can read this when I get back... even if I gain a couple of pounds I will still have lost about 2 stone... even if I gain a couple of pounds its not nearly as much as I would gain if I wasn't doing ww and keeping some control... even if I gain 2lbs it will only take a couple of weeks to lose it again....

So I am looking forward to camping, looking forward to being nominated driver so I can keep some control, looking forward to picnics and meals out and looking forward to that cooked breakfast!!! and when I get back I hope my scales don't hide from me!

Letting Myself Down

Well I knew it would happen, I put on 1.5 lbs last week. Then to commiserate, I fed myself. I have eaten steak baguette, pizza, curry, chocolate, cake and drunk wine and cider - all in the space of one weekend. I enjoyed it at the time but now I have typed it out like that it just looks extravagant and greedy.

So today we are drawing a line, I would like to draw it in fluorescent pink so it stands out a mile.

The worst of it is, I have no weigh in this week because we are going camping on Thursday and last time we went camping I put on weight even though I was being careful so the next couple o weeks are going to be tough food wise.

At the end of the day I am only letting myself down but I am so annoyed with myself and annoyed with hubby for bringing home chocolate!

Race For Life 2008

Just wanted to share with you my elation at taking part in Race For Life at Shugborough Hall last night! A whole range of emotions, I felt great for raising £500 for Cancer Research, great for being able to walk the whole 5K without stopping, there were a lot that did and last year I probably would have been one of them, I felt buzzed to be in a crowd of women all with the same goal but then on the other hand reading all the memories on peoples backs, I myself had four names which is far too many people to lose to cancer. Beryl who died his year, Chris who was taken some years back now, Mavis who has fought Breast cancer and died and Pam who is fighting it right now.

There was also in particular the story of the little girl aged 4 who took part 'to raise money for people with cancer' only for her gran to add that the little girl was fighting cancer herself... how can you not well up at a story like that?

Oh and despite the downpour we smiled all the way through!

I'm A Mummy

Well it has all been made official. I am now the mummy to a nearly two year old toddler. I don't get to meet her until the end of July but weirdly I feel like I already know her! Anyway with all the celebrating this week and build up to the panel meeting and being in hospital on Tuesday I haven't had a particularly good weight-watchers week, but some weeks I just have to say oh well and just pull back what I can (hence the 0-point soup recipe below)! I have actually done quite well at sticking to the points this week it's just that I have wasted a lot on wine, fizz and crap!

Butternut Squash & Roast Veg Soup

This is a good recipe for leftover roasted veg and is how I actually invented the recipe!

Roast some veg in chilli infused olive oil - not a lot mind, we are weight watchers after all! I roasted garlic, red onion, red pepper, yellow pepper, courgettes and 1/3 butternut squash. I added some fresh thyme to mine too.

Chop up the rest of the butternut squash and chuck in a pan with some water - enough to amply cover all your veg. Boil up the squash with two chicken stock cubes (or vegetable if you prefer) and then add the roasted veg, instantly the delicious pepper smell hits you.

Boil for a further five minutes then blend. I also sieved mine to get rid of the texture of boiled butternut squash.

Mind blowing soup!

Had a good week again and another 2lb loss, this was despite going out for a meal on Friday night, normally not a good idea. We went to the new Thai restaurant on our road and I made wise choices (well except for the amount of wine I drank!). I started with Tom Yum soup, yummmmm is right, it was possibly the most delicious thing I have EVER tasted. Unfortunately it was also the hottest thing I have ever tasted and IT BLEW MY HEAD OFF! The owner warned me it was spicy before I started but also that the spice was good for the heart! A little later his lovely wife came over, "oooh you have lots of red chilli's in your bowl" snicker snicker and off she toddled away, giggling to herself. You're telling me I had chilli's in my bowl! That's me eating the soup, those red bits are chillies!Would I order it again? You bet I would!!!

What else? Lets see, I measured myself on Friday and am pleased to report losses in most areas (why not my bingo wings for heavens sake??) but particularly my waist and bust area, I can now shop for bra's pretty much anywhere including Matalan and Asda which is great because specialist shops are blooming expensive!!! So of course I treated myself to some new undies!

Its all going the right way!

I feel amazing every day. Why I didn't do this before, I have no idea. I feel fitter, I feel healthier, I am more inclined to put some make up on in a morning because I feel more like my old self!

Last night I went for a practice walk with my sister, practice for the Race For Life that we are taking part in next week. We were most of the way round and Dawn noticed some directions. The whole walk was 6.5k, more than we thought when we set out. I managed the walk pretty well and it took us 80 minites. However I did have a big dinner before we set out so I did have pain from my gallstones, so considering that I think I did pretty well!

On top of that this morning Mrs Neville, the lady who owns the land our allotment is on, commented on my weight loss! She is not the sort of person you would expect a comment from so I was really chuffed!